an ode to my loneliness

There's a hole in my heart that goes all the way to China.
There's an ache in my soul that lands somewhere near Nepal.
There's a lack in my day that is stronger than ten ponies.
I'm so bored and so lonely that my body wants to stall.

There's a drag to my step that reminds me that I'm solo.
There's a slump to my spine that protects me and my fear.
The refrain in my brain just goes over, over, over,
"You're alone today, kid, and there's none but me to hear."

So I hurt, and I yearn, and build a new agenda,
And I plan out my day to distract me from the ache.
While I play by myself I feel raw and remember
If I focus on drowning, I will never cross this lake.

So I take a deep breath, and I plunge into the water,
And it's cold and it's lonely, but hey, look, I didn't die.
A whole day by myself and I'm only getting stronger.
All alone, on my own, but with loneliness nearby.